Introducing: ME

Hey everyone.
THis journal is for anyone who wants to read the daily goings on inside this so called mind of mine.
For those who do not know me personally, my name is Nikki. I am 41 years old. I've been married over 21 years to Mike.
He retired from 20 years of Naval Service to our country not long ago.
I am mom to Michael who is almost 21, Joey who is almost 17, Tony who is 12, and Angel who is 11.

A little background???

Well for the past 3 months my periods have been crazy. Doc even told me I'm more than likely going thru the perimenopause stuff. Oh great!!! Dealing with that and hormonal stuff has been a horrible nightmare for me. I have been tired, achey, and just feeling like poo. One month (3 periods ago) I bled for 24 days straight so I thought, oh boy , here I go!
THe next month (March) it was normal. ANyway as normal as it can be I guess.
Well April came and it was weird again. ALmost like nothing...and that "almost nothing" lasted about 7 days.
Well......I had off Good Friday from work so me and my friend Courtney were out doing Easter shopping at Walmart when I got this grand ole idea to take a pregnancy test.

Now...more background.

After I had Angel, I had one pregnancy and I misscarried around the 3rd week. It was awful. It was my one and only misscarriage and Mike and I always said that we would take as many children as God wanted us to have. So after many years of nothing without using any kind of contraception, I thought, we both thought that it just wasn't in His Plan.

And so....I was in Walmart....left the things I had in my buggy already with Courtney, and proceeding to the checkout with the Walmart brand cheap pregnancy test.
Bought it...
Bagged it...
Almost ran to the bathroom...yes in Walmart....to proceed to peeing on this stick lol.

Well, the test says to wait 3 minutes. Holy Moly, it only took a minute!!!!!!!!
When I saw the plus sign, I think I ran out of the bathroom, looking for my friend. I know she told me where she would be but I was frantic. I couldn't find her anywhere!!!!!!
If I was on the outside watching me , I think I would have called 911 to pick me up. I looked like a crazy woman.

Well, I found her, after what seemed like forever looking....
And I was shaking and not thinking straight.

I asked her to look and tell me , confirm to me what I saw.
She did!!!

I told her that there is no way I could finish my shopping I had planned for the day. So I proceeded home to show Mike....

He saw...and told me to not get my hopes up!!! Told me to see what the doc says...
Well, I don't do waiting very well so instead of waiting weeks to see my doctor, I high-tailed it to my local ER and told them I was spotting and that I wanted a blood test done.

So, the doc did a blood test, confirmed the pregnancy and then said , OK we're going to do an ultrasound. Actually two of them. One normal and one internal to make sure this isn't a tubal pregnancy since I was spotting.

Ok, on to the ultrasound. First the docs has to put in a catheter.....not happy about that. THey needed to fill my bladder quickly....I've never been catherized in all my 41 years. So ok, still more things to tramatize me.
Not make matters worse, two ladies came in and one lady asked me if it was ok for this girl to put one in cause she was new. Sure, whatever!!! But ....then I started to listen to their conversation. This was only the 2nd one she had ever done!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh my !!!!
Ok catheter in, rolling into the ultrasound room.
THe regular ultrasound showed nothing because my uterus is tipped so far back that the doc said ok time to do an internal ultrasound. Oh great...this day has been so fun!
Ok well, as I watched the screen, up popped this little circle on the screen.
"this is what we are looking for" the nurse said.
She proceeded to take the measurements and pointed to the yolk inside the amniotic sac and told me everything looks completely normal.
PRAISE GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

......Ok I will fill you all in on how I told my kids and their responses!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but this will come a bit later. You see, I run a full time daycare in my home and the kids are now here so no more writing for now. Yes, pregnant at 41 after 11 years, I run a full time daycare, homeschool my kids....and writing a blog to keep everyone updated on my "controlled chaos"

Until later :)